I am absolutely in love with my new child, Noah. Very much.
There’s much love to give that I finally understand how mums can continue to have more and more children.
I’m bonding very well with Noah. I know it sounds terrible to say but I feel I am bonding with Noah more, as a newborn, compared with Seth. With Seth, I bonded with my bump a lot. It could well be because I know exactly what I’m doing this second time round and I feel a lot more comfortable. Nevertheless, I’m not complaining about the sleepless nights nor the breastfeeding. I remember that I wanted to give up on breastfeeding within a week with Seth. And during this pregnancy with Noah, I had told friends that I would probably start Noah on formula on the get-go. A week has past already but I’m enjoying every moment of breastfeeding and have no intention of giving up. Not just yet anyways!
What’s also very different this time is how I am managing the newborn’s sleep cycle and feeding schedule. With Seth, I was known as “The Schedule” Nazi. I mean, we took him everywhere with us and he was an angel but we rarely, if not at all, broke the rules with feeding times, let alone co-sleeping with us! If it meant, waking Seth with a wet washer when it was time to feed, I did it. Nor did I have an issue with leaving him to ‘cry it out’ because it wasn’t feeding time yet. With little Noah, I was co-sleeping with him on day two in hospital. My heart aches to see him cry and I feel the maternal instincts a lot more than with Seth.
I feel very blessed to be able to such different yet positive experiences with each child.
With Seth, it was all very front-loaded excitement and following text book theories, which worked wonders for all practicality purposes.
With Noah, I was a lot more laid back with the pregnancy and preparation. The experiments seems to be more delayed and I’m enjoying the newborn journey more.
Let’s see… It has only been a week (but also the toughest, from memory). Fingers crossed I haven’t jinxed myself!