For the years that I have worked, never before have I dreaded going back to work after a long holiday – particularly after one full month’s break. Usually, I am eager to kick right back into it.
Tomorrow, work resumes. I am dreading it.
I’m not sure whether it’s being a mother that has changed me or whether it’s the business I am working for or the fact that my personal life is giving me enough stress that I simply don’t want to take on more.
Being a mother means there is no way of ever shaking off the feeling of anxiety. There is always going to be a reserve in the mind for Seth. That reserve, itself, has taken up some capacity to manage stress.
The business is absolutely heading off in the right direction and I am proud to be part of team that is growing 10x the other business units are, also backed by the most powerful influencers within the organisation. That said, stress levels come in at least 5x more, I bet. Ok, that’s an exaggeration. Let’s just say there are more eagle eyes and pressure or expectation to perform.
So, with personal life being full of its highs and lows, is it not so normal to wish that you didn’t have to work so you can feel like your life is in control first?
Who knows….all I know is that life doesn’t get easier. Tomorrow, here I come.