Throw Away Your Health Goals, please!

Have you ever:
1. said to someone, “I’m on a diet”?
2. typed this into Google “how to lose weight in 5 days..”

Google Search -Lose Weight

3. have you looked at Before and After photos and thought, “yeah, I want to try that workout.”?
4. have you wished you enjoyed working out or was more athletic like that girl back in high school?

If you answered ‘yes’ to any of them, then we have something in common and in this post I want to share with you something that changed my life.  I talk about it a lot in themes of my blog but probably not enough.

It’s literally throwing away setting ‘health goals’. It’s veering away from ‘I can do it’ with willpower.  It’s replacing this model of being a ‘goal-kicking achiever’ to being ‘willing’.  And then? No, ‘and then..’.   Yup, that’s it.  Just being ‘willing’.

This was how I started my talk at a recent workshop – Vision Casting & Life Strategies run by Fideliz Cruz.

I vividly recall the look in the audiences faces as I introduced this new concept of not having to ‘rely on your own willpower’  (not ALONE anyways) and replacing this concept with ‘faith’ and ‘willingness’.  There were confused faces, skeptical faces and raised eyebrows.  Until I showed them this….and then people were interested in what changed my life.


The left was when I was pregnant (I tried to find photos of post-pregnancy but I couldn’t find any. Surprise! And frankly it doesn’t make a difference because I looked practically the same) and the right was when my first born was 1 years old.

I was filled with willpower to lose my 25 kilos.  And I did it.  You see, I eat willpower for breakfast.  In fact, it’s my biggest enemy.  Because of this false sense of security, aka willpower, I have suffered from bulimia, anorexia, depression, anxiety and ended up in hospital many times in my life.  But at least twice for suicidal attempts.

My experience has told me that ‘willpower’ and kicking ‘health goals’ doesn’t sit quite right.  I’m sure some can relate, and others are like, “I kinda prefer to have your willpower.” And perhaps you sit on the other end of the spectrum, where you dream of your goals and never seem to be able to achieve them.

This is where I fault the system.  Relying on willpower sucks.

Willingness, on the other hand, is powerful.  It’s not judgemental.  It’s kinder.  It fits well for those who kick goals and those who don’t do so well with goals.  Either ways, we’re trying.  You can’t fail if you’re still trying, right?

Now, of course the questions is then, willingness to ‘what?’   I can’t answer that question for you but it must be something that is greater than your own being.  It must be sustainable.   Mothers can relate to this easily.  You are willing to sacrifice your needs for your children.

For me, it’s surrendering my willpower to control, to change things, to do things in My plan, My time,  My will ….to God.  You saw it coming, didn’t you?

Yup, here I am preaching again.  And get this.  I do it not because there is any specific gain.  It’s not a goal I’m kicking.   I preach because my life has changed since I’ve really picked up the cross and followed Jesus.  And I passionately feel it to share with you.

I’ve realised that He loves me in whatever shape, size or form I am.  He loves me no matter how many goals I kick or not.  There is no scoreboard.  In fact, because He loves me so much, it doesn’t matter if I put on a kilo or two every now and then.  He teaches me about balance and learning to love my body so that I am WILLING to treat my body with love and care.  Bring on a juice detox and do it with joy! Bring on a degustation and eat it with joy!  If you turn your eyes on Him, you’ll KNOW how important it is to stay healthy.

With this new lifestyle, I’m so thankful that my Vision is clear and my Lifestyle Strategy is rooted in a good place.  Everything I do, I turn my eyes to God and really trust in His health plan for me.  Not my own.

Today, if you’re wondering whether you could explore something different for your health goals, take time to ponder this verse from the Bible:

“For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit,”  ~ Romans 17:14

Further to this, a genuine feeling of emptiness can sometimes be real and needs attention, too. Read more here.



There’s One Thing That Anxiety Cannot Change | Christian Yoga Class

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?….

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”  ~ Matthew 6: 25-27, 34 (NIV)

Praise God!  Thank you, Jesus.

  By God’s grace and the help of a beautiful friend, Pia, I held my biggest Holy Yoga class on Sunday 30th August 2015 at 4.30pm inside Mowbray Public School’s hall. This class was filled with more than 20 lovely ladies, most of whom who are sisters in Christ and some who are not-yet-Believers of Christ. I am humbled by the gift that God has blessed me with, to minister His Word while holding a class for yoga beginners.

Two weeks leading up to this class, was I a nervous wreck?  Admittedly so.  Did I often pray for strength and for God’s reminder that non of this is my glory to claim and let all be done in His name (hence, why worry?)??  Absolutely.

Did I read and re-read the Scriptures (Matthew 6: 25-27) every day to relieve myself of anxieties leading up to this class. Absolutely.

Was I nervous on the day?  Absolutely.

Was I able to do God’s work in peace and in His Glory?  ABSOLUTELY.

I am reminded that often, during times where our own earthly reputation is put on the line, we worry;  worry about how ‘WE’ are perceived by others and how ‘WE’ want to deliver perfection. Ultimately, all this is the temptation of the flesh to ‘glorify ourselves’.  And it is during this time, that it really tests our FAITH in our Father above.  Whether we truly honour Him in everything we do, and whether we can truly trust Him to deliver whatever outcomes He has planned for us. We learn to surrender it all to our loving Father above. When we try to take things into our own hands, all we get is anxiety. It does not change what our Heavenly Father has planned for us.  Anxiety does not add ‘an hour’ to our span of life. In fact, anxiety adds nothing but toxin to our lives. And so I learn…and I practise and I repeat. 

Being a Holy Yoga teacher refines me this way.  Daily.

I often get asked why I do what I do. There are a few reasons (and I’ll save that for another post) but one of the key reasons is because I NEED Holy Yoga for myself; precisely for the reminder that I need to surrender. And more importantly, I want to share what I’ve experienced with those who have yet to learn about our Father’s love.  I do what I do as Christian Yoga teacher because I am called to live out this passion with purpose. 

It was always my dream that if I became a yoga teacher one day, that I would be able to make friendship/yoga bracelets for my students. God even blessed me with my wishes and made this dream come true. 

I thank my students for allowing me the opportunity to share this time with them and for their generous contributions that will allow me to fund future ministry work.